Things improved after my last post, and just when I relaxed into a new, pretty positive state, those same disappointments have boomeranged around again.
Winter. I don't see any magic in it right now. Winter is looking out my kitchen window onto my part of the snow-covered balcony and seeing lots of piles of poop from the neighbor's dog, along with some yellow snow for good measure.
At least it is sunny today. And I made some cinnamon rolls. (And I am happy to know that I can make brown sugar by adding molasses to regular white sugar. I often can't use up brown sugar before it goes as hard as a rock, so my new plan is to do this from now on, every time I need brown sugar. Did everyone except me know this?)
I know I can recover from these disappointments; I've already survived the worst. (And Booboo is here for a while visiting, and he's being particularly sweet right now so that really helps.)
Winter is tough - I grew up in Chicago & was depressed every winter. I'm just NOT a cold weather person at all. The best thing I did was move to Southern California with my ex-hubby decades ago.
ReplyDeleteYou had mentioned that you moved to Canada for your ex. Do you ever think about moving back home where your friends/family are?
Well, I'm glad you have BooBoo - hang in there and watch comedy movies on DVDs! Try to get out, too - go to coffee shops, bookstores, etc. I think it helps not to just be cooped up all day.
Hi SewTypical,
DeleteWhen my ex left, I considered moving away...somewhere. But I realized that everyone I love is scattered everywhere so there is not a logical place. Chicago would probably be the best option other than here, but many of my close friends there have moved away in the years since I've been gone. So it would involve restarting anyways.
And here I am continuing, which feels better. And I discovered that my friendships here are strong and I have "family" here who love me and I have a day job I like and some interesting artistic opportunities that have developed over the last year.
But yeah, I thought about it for sure when my world exploded but ulimately decided to continue building my life here... But yeah, winter is tough.
Good idea to watch some comedies.... And I made myself go out today for a few minutes to do some errands in the neighborhood. The sun was out, so that was nice.
Enjoy the Southern Califormia weather for me! :)
Jenny
Jenny, I just wanted to send some hugs and positive thoughts your way. I'm about to join you in the world of navigating divorce, though I'm the one initiating mine. There are already so many emotions, and I imagine that will continue for quite awhile. But everyone keeps telling me it will get better, and I believe that, both for myself and for you. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteOh, canadianchia, I am so sorry to hear this. Divorce is painful (no matter what the reason). If you want to talk (or to get away and come for a visit to Quebec!), please let me know. I am sending you a big, big hug....
DeleteHi Jenny,
ReplyDeleteGood to "hear" from you again! And I'm glad you had a couple of nice weeks and that BooBoo is visiting for a bit. I second the comedies suggestion, though I would add that sometimes when I'm sad it helps to watch an emotionally intense movie (or read the same kind of book) that is unrelated to whatever's going on with me (so no Blue Valentine when I'm having relationship problems). That way I get to cry everything out, but I'm not focused on my own issues. Philadelphia is the first movie that comes to mind. Anyways, I hope you have a nice week and that the sun stays out in your corner of the world.
Hugs,
Breck
Thanks, Breck. I haven't been watching too many movies because so many of them have themes that would be hard for me to watch right now. I will admit I watched Under the Tuscan Sun three times over Christmas. It was so good to see a character make the same journey, go through the pain and come out okay on the other side. Will have to look for some movies with themes that I can deal with.... Philadelphia is a good idea. I've only seen that one once and it about 20 years ago! 20 years!??? How is that even possible. Now I feel old! :)
DeletePut the brown sugar in the freezer, never gets hard.
ReplyDeleteGreat tip! Thanks!
DeleteA little trick that I learned about brown sugar: put a piece of bread in the bag on top of the sugar, and it will always stay soft. you just may need to switch out the piece of bread every so often.
ReplyDeleteThanks for the idea! Hopefully I will never have hard brown sugar again... :)
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